Meet my son mason!

I have only mentioned my son in one other post, but I thought I would let you guys get to know him, and see pictures. Since he is a huge part of my daily life, I stay at home with him and I have since he was born. I am so grateful to be able to stay home with him and never miss a thing, all thanks to his dad/my boyfriend supporting my decision.

Since my son was born premature, at 34 weeks gestational age I have been so protective over him. But that is no different from any other mother. It was not easy seeing him hooked up to all these things, and it was even harder to walk out of the hospital two days after I gave birth to him, without him. I kept blaming myself, and thinking that maybe there was something I did that caused this. But there was nothing wrong with me that would have caused him to be premature, so I had to get over that.

The day we finally got to hold him was a dream come true. We were happy beyond belief, we waited a week to be able to hold him for the first time. If we could have been by his side 24/7 while he was in the NICU for almost two weeks, we would have been. Our son being in the NICU was the best thing for him, he needed to get better and strong enough to come home without having to come back to the hospital. It also gave me time to heal from having Post Partum Depression. I cried all day, everyday. Even though I went to the hospital to see him every single day, I was very depressed and could not shake it off.

Then, the day came when it was time to bring our baby boy home! It felt like forever, but the day finally came and it was amazing. We would be the ones to hold him, feed him, change his diapers, get peed on, and wipe his tears away. We finally felt like parents, we were finally going to be able to have him beside our bed in his bassinet and wake up to him every single morning.

He had his first bath, his first experience in his baby swing, his first welcome home, and his first time sleeping in his own bassinet.

About a month later, he had his first Christmas! He got so spoiled, even though he was so tiny. I took my own pictures of him in his Christmas outfit, and he also had pictures with Santa ( who he did not like very much .)

Since he was premature, we had to take him to an eye specialist in Philadelphia to make sure his retina was developing the way it is supposed to. It was emotional because he was terrified and in pain once again, it was like I was seeing him in the NICU all over again.

After months of going to the eye specialist, he finally did not have to go anymore, because there was nothing to worry about. Everything was fine with his eyes.

Once he was home, it felt like time went by so fast...and his first birthday came. It felt like we fast forwarded a year, where did the time go?

So we celebrated his first year of life, and he had so much fun. All of my boyfriends family came to our apartment from two hours away to celebrate, and some of my family came also. He was so loved and so spoiled like every baby should be. And it is what I have always dreamed of.

Annndddd...shortly after his birthday we celebrated his second christmas!

Of course he got spoiled once again, because all of those presents under the tree were his :)

Now he is walking all over the place and saying dada, baba, and kitty. It's okay, I know he loves me even though he hasn't said mama yet haha

Here is our baby boy today!

I hope you enjoyed learning about my little boy, my everything.

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