NICU journey with my son

From my personal experiences

As a mom who has had to deal with her child having to stay in the NICU, I have heard some disturbing comments. From people telling me how tiny my son was to some saying that I was lucky to be able to sleep while my son was being taken care of by someone else. When I heard these things, I did not even know what to say. I understand my son is small, but I hated when people pointed it out. And about the other comment made....I'm not sure why anyone would think that way about a mother being seperated from her baby. It is honestly one of the worst things that I had to go through in my life. You carry a baby inside you for months, give birth to them...and you have to go home without them. Now I am going to share with everyone what I went through with my son & his NICU journey. Hopefully with this story, everyone can see how strong you have to be for your baby and your self sanity to get through this kind of situation. You feel empty and you wonder why you were not good enough to keep your baby safely inside you until it was safe to come into the world.
    So let's start from the beginning. After I had my son at 34 weeks pregnant, they put him on my chest and then quickly took him away after a second. Me and my boyfriend got to gaze into his eyes for a SECOND, and then he was taken from me. Of course I understand the reasoning behind it, he was born way too early and they had to make sure he was okay. But that still did not make it okay in my mind. Once they cleaned him up and wrapped him in a blanket, they brought him over to me and I got to hold him for a minute (that felt like a second) me and his father fell in love and just wanted to keep him by our sides. But, they took him again into the NICU room to get checked out, while the NICU nurse told me when I could go see him..and that they would let me know if anything was wrong with him. She told me I had to wait to see him for about an HOUR or two. I was not happy and I instantly started to cry. It was not fair.
   She told me that I needed to eat something and shower before I could see him, while they made sure he was okay. So I ordered food from the hospital and ended up not eating anything but some sweedish fish that my boyfriend bought me that I wanted while I was in labor. When I was done taking a shower, we immediately went to see our baby boy. We had to wash our hands and put hand sanitizer on. My boyfriend had to put a plastic gown on over his clothes before we went in. They walked us to our son, we were so happy to finally come see him after what felt like forever...but I started to cry because I just wanted to hold him and let him know that mommy and daddy were there. I started to feel guilty, as if it was all my fault that I did not have a full term pregnancy. I felt like it was my fault he was going through all this.
   He had a tube in his nose to help him breath, and a feeding tube down his throat and a golden heart on is chest to keep him warm. I hated seeing him, and I was also so happy that he was okay. So many mixed emotions, but we could not help but be so incredibly grateful that nothing was seriously wrong with him. The doctor came in and explained everything to us, my first question was..when can we bring him home? Obviously because he nurse already explained to us that he was doing fine. But when the doctor told me that he had to stay for atleast 2 weeks I lost it. I was am I supposed to go home without my baby that I just carried for months and have bonded with and gave natural birth to? I did not understand why he would have to stay that long if he only needed a little assistance breathing. I mean obviously the doctor knows more then me so I did not question him, but I was still very upset.
   That night, I couldn't sleep and just kept waking up crying and walking from my hospital room to the NICU to see my baby. I kept feeling like he was lonely and he needed his mommy. Also, I felt guilty being in a completely different room from him when he should have been by my side. When morning came, I went to go see him..and I was having very bad anxiety because I knew I had to go home the next day. I cried all day long and could not sleep at all. My doctor came in the next day to see me and I was crying when she came in. I also had my lunch sitting on my stand not touched, she told me that I had to eat something. I told her that I did not have an appetite, I can't sleep and I have been crying all the time. So she gave me a Post Partum Depression test, I took it..and I got a really high score, which means that I did have Post Partum Depression. She was explaining to me that I need to try to calm down and that he was being well taken care of in the NICU. She continued and said that I needed to take care of myself so that I can take care of my son when he comes home. And that was pretty motivational, it didn't make anything all better...but it did lighen things up for me a little bit.
   Babies can sense that you are upset, and then they can get upset. So I tried my best to not cry when I went into the NICU to see him. When the day came that I had to leave the hospital I was a mess, and I cried all day long. My boyfriend got out of work and came to get me, I packed up all my stuff and we went to go see him before we went home. I cried the whole time I was in there, I just could not control myself. No matter how many times my boyfriend told me that we can come see him everyday, or the nurses telling me he is in good hands...nothing made it better. And nothing was going to make it better until he came home with us. I mean, I am his mother after all...I should be the one to make him stop crying, change his diaper, and care for him. But instead, all of these strangers are taking care of my son while I sit at home alone, wondering if he is really being taken care of as well as he should be, or if anyone is even paying attention to him.
   It was the worst feeling in the world, and it made me stronger and appreciate my son being with me every single day even more.

Substitute for diaper cream?

   Have you found yourself forgetting to pick up diaper cream at the store, or you just did not realise how low you were? Sometimes our little ones can catch us off guard with diaper rashes out of nowhere, I found one thing that worked amazingly for my son when I didn't have any diaper cream on hand.
   Neosporin worked miracles for my son when I had no diaper cream. His bowel movements were burning his bum, so I had to put something on him to give him relief and take it away. His diaper rash was gone the next day, I kept applying the neosporin every time I changed his diaper.
  Neosporin is much cheaper then diaper cream, and I have found that it works a lot better! I hope this helps someone when they have a diaper rash emergency!! :)

Food Ideas for 1 year olds

Some parents freak out when their baby turns 1 because that means whole milk & 3 meals a day, along with 2-3 snacks a day. Sometimes it can be overwhelming figuring out what to give your 1 year old to eat. I had the same problem, and I freaked out when I had to figure out everyday what to feed my son. Now that he is 15 months old, I have come up with some easy to eat meals & snacks for my little one. Although at the moment, he is teething very badly so he doesn't want to eat anything but yogurt and graduates puffs. So I figured I could not possibly be the only mother who is lost when it comes to what to feed their 1 year old, and now I am writing this post to help other mothers out.

Meal Ideas:
  1. Tyson Chicken Nuggets-cut up in small chewable pieces
  2. Slightly toasted bread with low sodium butter-cut up in small pieces
  3. Slightly toasted bread with a light coat of peanut butter with cut up bananas
  4. Canned peas
  5. Canned carrots
  6. Mashed potatoes & gravy
  7. Pancakes
  8. Cereal that has been sitting in milk for a couple minutes
  9. Waffles with peeled strawberries
  10. Noodles with low sodium butter on it
  11. Lunch meat sandwich ( if your 1 year old can bite food )
  12. Flavored Oatmeal
  13. Baked Potato
  14. Meatballs
  15. Cottage Cheese with jelly
  16. Stuffing
Snack Ideas:
  1. Peeled Strawberries
  2. Peeled grapes 
  3. Low sodium ritz crackers
  4. Graduates puffs
  5. Yogurt
  6. Cheese curls
  7. Cottage Cheese with jelly
  8. Gogurt
  9. Cranberry Sauce
  10. Banana slices
  11. Unfrosted pop tarts
  12. Organic cereal bars
I will be adding to this list as I think of things.
Did you find this helful? Leave me a comment :)

Get rid of Super Lice without chemicals

Most of us depend on store bought lice treatments to get rid of lice. But what some people don't know is that the lice today, also known as "super lice" are prone to most treatments out there. That's when you have to take care of it yourself, from products you probably already have in your home. Why would you want to use chemicals on your child's head or your anyway, right?
What you will need:

  • Coconut Oil
  • Lice comb (fine toothed, and with the teeth of the comb very close)
  • Shower cap
The first step you will need to take after you confirm that you or your child has lice: Untangle the hair, and rub the coconut oil all over the scalp and all over the hair. ( If you are using solid coconut oil, rub it into your hands until it becomes liquid ) Leave it in the hair for atleast six hours, or overnight. Wrap hair in a shower cap if you leave it in overnight.

Second step: Untangle hair completely, and run the lice comb through every single spot in your hair. It is easier to separate portions of hair to make sure you didn't miss anything. Repeat until you don't pick up and eggs or lice on your comb for at least five strokes through.

Third Step: Wash out the coconut oil with shampoo and conditioner

Fourth Step: Repeat this cycle every two to three weeks, because if there are still eggs in the hair they will hatch and your head will be filled with lice once again. If you repeat this cycle every two to three weeks for about a month or two you will remove the lice before they can keep laying eggs.

Useful Tip: Adding tea tree oil to your shampoo will prevent lice from entering your hair.

20 Blog Post Ideas

We all get writers blog once in a while. So here are some ideas to break the writers block!

  1. Favorite Recipes- Share some recipes that you love making, or recently discovered that were a hit
  2. Buy something recently? Share a review with your viewers
  3. Share a talent of yours-  A lot of people are constantly looking to try new things out
  4. Share some life hacks- People love discovering new things to make their life easier
  5. Share pictures and a story about a recent road trip or travel journey
  6. Tell a story about a life experience
  7. Tell a story about a difficult situation you experienced and how you got through it
  8. Make a list of your favorite movies or songs
  9. Are you good at planning? Share some tips on how you became successful at planning
  10. If you budget your money, make a post about how you made your budget. Some people don't know how to
  11. Make a post about quick and easy meal ideas
  12. Do a house/apartment tour, either with pictures or a video. 
  13. Write out a morning routine, or make a video on it
  14. Share your favorite coffee and why you love it so much
  15. Write a post about whats on your bucket list
  16. Cleaning hacks- share some cleaning hacks that will make peoples lives easier
  17. Doing something exciting today? Or maybe very soon? Share it on your blog
  18. DIY's-  these are very big hits, and people love reading them
  19. Write about your fears
  20. Have you epicly failed at something? Write about it, or share some pictures
I hope this helps you! Let me know what you think about these ideas in the comments, and let me know if it helped!

My Favorite French Toast Recipe

Do you find yourself not wanting to make french toast because it always comes out too soggy, or just not tasting like french toast should? Well I'm about to share the recipe I came across when I was tired of making not so good french toast. I was embarrassed to serve it to my family. But ever since I made it like this, it was a big hit and everyone loved it! Keep reading to learn how to make the best french toast EVER right from home!

What you will need:

  • 8 slices of white bread
  • 8 Large egs
  • 1 1/2 cups of milk
  • 3 tablespoons of sugar
  • 2 teaspoons of ground cinnamon ( or how much you like )
  • 1/8 teaspoon of salt
  • 4 tablespoons of melted butter
  • powdered sugar for serving
  • syrup

Lay your 8 slices of bread on a baking sheet, it is okay if they overlap a little bit. Bake the bread in the oven for 6 minutes, flip them, and return them to the oven for another 6 minutes.
Set your bread aside to cool
Whisk together eggs, milk, sugar, cinnamon, and salt in a mixing bowl. Pour it into a large casserole dish. 
Heat your frying pan under medium to medium-low heat. Lay two pieces of your baked bread flat on top of the mixture on both sides for about 30 seconds to a minute, or as long as it takes for the bread to soak up the mixture without breaking apart when picked up. Melt about a tablespoon of butter in your frying pan and then add your pieces of bread.
Cook until they are golden brown and crispy on the outside and thoroughly cooked on the inside. Repeat until all 8 slices are done. 

I hope you enjoy this recipe as much as me and my family did!!